the grad

So last night my friends and i went to the grad and it was fun i danced with this guy that spoke a language Ive never heard before and he was around 18 and yeah partied alot last night:) well i didn't do anything bad. but i also danced with one of my guy friends that happened to be there. but i was really disappointed because Steve said he was going to go so i kept looking for him and not dancing with too many guys so that you know he wouldn't think i didn't like him but Steve never came and that made me kinda sad..i got rejected and he hasn't texted me today and well idk whats up. but i decided if he wants to talk to me he will and well I'm not going to fall for him if he doesn't even see me that way. but last night was still pretty fun i must say:):)

oops he did it again

so life had been going great Steve walked with me to my class today which was in the complete opposite direction of his class and well he was late too class cause he walked me to my class, and when he gave me a goodbye hug i couldn't stop smiling and giggling..but  i did the giggling and smiling after i was in class so he wouldn't think i was a weirdo:) but then at lunch he told my friend that he liked me but cause of the age difference he doesn't know.. so basically its a no. my heart dropped when she told me. i held in all i could until 5th when i asked to leave to the bathroom. thank goodness no one was in there because i started crying. why is it that when i start to fall for a guy they don't like me or lose complete interest in me. and idk I'm fed up with it. i just want someone who will actually like me and care about me.

new guy

so i don't think its going to work out with this one new guy i met(we will call him Steve). i really like him and want it to work. but Steve is a senior and a baseball player. why would he wan to be with a sophomore when he can be having fun with all his senior friends doing what senior boys do. you know what i mean?
well my friend and i went to go see her cousin which happens to hang out with Steve and well we said she was paying her cousin back but really it was so i could talk to him but i got really nervous and stupid and was quiet and just said 'hi:)" aaahhhh Ive never felt SO stupid around a guy before..:/

ello

well now officially over that one dude. ive started talking to a senior and im a sophomore:):):):):) well we me very randomly and he asked my friend for my number and we have been texting and he hasnt asked for anything:):):):) and he seems like a really sweet guy:) and life is kinda going not in the place i want it yet. but i still dont know what i want. im only 16 i think i have about a year to figure out what i want. and haha well now i just need to live life and breath.

its a new day

soo ill fill you in on whats happened the past while i haven't blogged. Guy i liked and told i like but he wasn't "ready" for a relationship has a girlfriend now. id rather he tell me he didn't like me then say that he wasn't ready and get with a girl within the next 2 weeks he told me that crap. well other then that life is pretty good I'm finally over him and Ive been talking to a lot of people meet some cool people and been living life:) i don't always stare at him anymore:)!! and i don't even remember he is in my class anymore..lol. hummmmm. hung out with the guy friends more often:) well nothing really exciting has happened yet soo ill fill you in if anything does happen( probably not) but just in case ill fill you in well..bye:)