Boy

the guy in trying to get over is in one of my classes now:/ i like him soo much uuurrrggghhh! and this other guy actually likes me and cares about me and why cant  i fall for the guys who like me instead of the guys who use me..:/

Dear friend my secret dreams

Hello dear old friend..the one who listens to the sorrows of my life, the one who never talks back, and the one who can never stop listening. well life's just wonderful right about now. living off a few hours of sleep dancing the rest of the time and now they put me in this modeling thing. dear friend, i do want my sleep back and some energy to stay awake and focused in my classes so i don't fail the 10th grade and i do want time to do what i love to. my fingers are frozen right now..its a bit hard to type. have you ever wanted something soo bad and it feels like its the most impossible thing in the world..yeah that's how i feel right about now. okay friend ill let you in on my dreams. become a wonderful dancer and get famous and maybe star in a few films get well known get married have a family and live happily ever after. haha..if only life were so simple. oh well i can dream and work hard for it. fate will decide on whats best for me if i make it or stay a small town girl that's unknown to everyone else.

12 hours

had 12 hours of dance today..wasn't that bad..thought it would be worse but it was really fun:) ha ha..i think i need to sleep more. but i don't think i will. have dance for 4 hours tomorrow..hum..my life.. school, dance, eat, homework, and maybe sleep and maybe be able to go out with friends if i don't have rehearsal..lol

Get outta ur mind

currently have that song stuck in my head and the dance to that song. other then that..i have decided that I'm just gonna forget about that one guy and try and move on as best as i can and well hes a jerk and i don't need him anymore..right?
urgh..don't want to go to dance in a few hours..i have it from 9am to 9:30pm blah..my head wants to explode! i feel like I'm running ragged. and I'm tired of texting boys with dirty thoughts!!! Ive been texting them too long when am i going to actually have a real conversation with a guy i like again and not one that involves dirty stuff..humm..well whats a girl to do?..idk but this Fridays the last football game:( they were fun while they lasted.

Lucky

All of u who have read my blogs might have already figured out that I'm obsessed with Glee:) well u know how they have Sam on the show now..well he looks and reminds me of the guy i like and when him and Quinn sing lucky idk.. i always feel sad and wish that could be me and the guy i like..lets rewind a bit..Ive liked this guy for about a year now and well the first while he was the guy everyone wants to date and no one can figure out why he doesn't date..so a few months fly be and we text every now and then and when summer came we started texting a lot! and well we would flirt...and then i finally told him that i liked him and he told me that he liked me too and once he said that i was sooo HAPPY..well problem is he was away for summer so we couldn't date and well we still text and all..and when school got here he stopped talking to me and then he started texting my friend( i might have already told you about this but i cant remember)  well for a little while i was a bit depressed because my friend knows how much i like him and yet she would still do that to me and i wouldn't be mad if they were talking just as friends but u know how it is they sextext all the time and then after a week he got tired of her and then started ignoring her:) and well now he is gonna talking to this one girl just for... and well its now when i look at him i feel like busting into tears or i get sad when i see them together and but now hes actually been starting to talk to me again and well Ive been really happy but unsure of what to do because he hurt me before but i like him soo much and now everytime i hear that song I'm reminded of him..