hummm...

dance class and star gazing it a good way to forget my sorrow's..i dont know where i went wrong in life but everything was good and then suddenly something happened.. i don't know what happened that made this odd change. i know I've changed for the worst but i want to go back and redo things..make a better difference!

Sweet 16:)

So my party was last night..and at first it was boring ..then it got hecka crazy when the Dj got there...hum:) i ♥ my crazzy friends:) we started dancing and then there was a pole so of  course being us we started pole dancing:) Then i got my birthday lap dances:) haha never in my life would i think id get lap dances from the people who gave em to me..haha..then my cake:) i loved my cake it was a 3 tear hot pink and black stars:) haha..this was a really good night:) i was a little sad that a guy i wanted to come didnt..but my friends made me forget and it was a fun night:) humm..sooo much fun:):):):):):)

can anybody find me somebody

Well, bored, at home singing along to the Glee "Somebody to love" and of course me thinking of a boy at the same time..I'm a hopeless romantic what can i say.(changing the subject) So i found out that its the 4th week of school and I'm almost failing all my classes:/ its not that i don't care about school..i do care about it, its just that my dance schedule is a bit hectic with dancing 19 hours a week..and getting home late and tired and doing homework at 10 or 11 going to sleep at 2 waking up at 6 to repeat the cycle can cause mental and physical damage to a teenage girl. well I'm half asleep during most of my school classes and at dance i push myself to my limit so i can improve and my body is screaming for some rest. but i love dance and its a passion and its worth it..but i just want like 1 good nights rest..well I'm going to take like a 30 min nap before ballet..night

its a new day:)

went to disneyland and california adventures this weekened with some friends:) it was amazing! went friday came back monday at 2am woke up at 6 to go to school:/ ive felt like a zombie all day..simple things in life that make it worth while:) i love them:) humm..i need sleep havent slept much cause of school, dance, and going out of town every weekened..night:)

Birthday weekened

Well so much for a birthday weekened. went to LA to visit family it was okay went. well my birthdays tomorrow and well i have a feeling that no ones going to remember. typically im the one who remembers everyones bday and do something special for then. but i dont think that they will remember mine. and idk why i feel like im on the verg of tears when i think about my birthday. im only going to be 16. but i just have that forgotten feeling u know. well al least i have a blog to vent to right?.right?

Ive just seen a face

it happened today:)..ive had this texting buddy for a while now and he lives in a different town and he gose to a differnt high school..so my friends invited me to go to a HS football game where he goes and well as i sat  in my seat my friend says look thats the guy uve been texting( we never sent any pictures to each other but he has seen me from another friend showing him a picture of me) and well ive sorta liked him while weve been texting and now seeing him it just make me like him more:)) and i wanted to go talk to him but u know when u get that nervous feeling and you dont go..yeah i had that feeling..but know yeah:) but its one of thoes things were you know nothings going to happen..well a girl can only hope:)

Love?

Is it real or not? As a little girl I grew up watching these fairy tales of love( I'm sure mostly all of you know which fairy tales I'm talking about) the ones where prince charming  comes saves the day falls in love with a girl and they live happily ever after...well I guess you could say throughout most of my childhood I believed that one day that my prince charming would come along...several years pass by i date and date and currently in high school realizing that maybe love isn't real..I've never experienced "love" first hand. but I've always had some hope that it would be real. is there anyone out there who has falling in love and it has lasted though thick and thin? if so can u tell me your love stories?
If your wondering why Im writing about love this evening it is because I've sorta started liking this guy:) and that led me to think about all my past relationships and none of them were functional and  Im a teenager and of course nothing in high school really lasts except for the very few that do..and observing my family members and there love life's and  none of them seem to be truly in "love"..so that's how it came into my mind..is love real or is it all lust?

The Wedding(slutty outfit)

AHH:) Finaly i had a good night:) the wedding was soo much fun! i wore the outfit that my mother picked for me..got noticed alot, but it was horrible for gettin low while dancin. Me and  my friend (the guy that my friends all went out with and are fighting cause of) danced all night soo much fun! and haha:)..well for the first time i took a risk and gave my number to this guy that i thought was cute and well lets see what happens..not really wanting another relationship just wanting some fun..im only young once right..why not have fun:) oh well lets see how this one turns out to be. but..oh:) tonight was soo much fun:)

Getting Ready(Sluty Style)

Well as i get ready for the wedding, my mom picks out one of the sluttiest dresses for me to wear with my sisters hooker heels( my sister isn't a hooker)..tells me my hair needs to be straigthened more then it is, tells me i need to wear make up(i dont wear any usually) ahh i think she wants me to get a boyfriend tonight:/..im sick and tierd of dating after having soo many boyfriends already, u get tired of it!!!! well lets see how the wedding is tonight.

To my surprise

Remember how i said that i doubt anything interesting would happen at the HS football game..guess what! i was completly right! At least they won the game..if not my night would have been boring like all the others. humm..well today plans for today: WEDDING!!! i really like going to them. haha:)

Same conversations

Finally! the first week of school is over!!!! well yesterday went to school, after school took a 4 hour drive to San Francisco to watch the 49er game and came back home at 2 am woke up at 6am to do homework went to school and it was the same thing! Friends gossiping about this girl sleeping with him and..blah, blah, blah, blah, blah..tired of it! everyday is meshing together. need something interseting to happen. maybe something fun might happen tonight at the HS football game( doubt it)..well my rides here now..i guess i should probably stop typing.

1st blog:)

Summers vacations over. Its the 3rd day of school and its horrible. 1st day back to school get stung by a bee and watched my finger blow up into a blimp and the rest of the day was a blur. 2nd day was uneventfull dicovered that i have some pretty interesting teachers and that its too stressful to try and hang out with all of ur friends when there all hating each other cause of a stupid boy they all went out with. Today was practically the same as all the others go to class stare at the clock and wish for the time to go by faster and  and see ur friends talk about the same boring things we did last week or the same topic that we always talk about(boys.. whos dating who, whos sleeping with who...etc)  its funny that we get these werid mood swings about school..we cant wait till summer vacation and when it gets here we miss school and sorta wanna go back but not really and whens schools back we cant wait to get out again...humm...silly right?..well currently wishing for a time machine to go back to this summer when things were fun and new and more welcoming. well thats all i have to say for today..