Screaming

So I really dislike high school. don't you love how when your friends always say that they're  going to be there for you when your in need of help because you always help them in there time of need. Well as most of you can tell they really could care less. Gosh I just want to cry and scream when ever I'm around them. I don't know why I feel this way it all started out with that stupid guy and how he likes someone else and it hurt I cried and  I'm finally getting over him but now its like everyone is out to hurt my feelings or something..(i know most of you must be saying suck it up, its just high school) but Ive never felt so lost and sensitive and like I want someone to be there so I can talk to and can understand me. Why is it that they come to me for all the answers and I cant even figure out my own life. I just need to get away from school, dance, friends, and family just for a weekend so I can figure it out because no one can tell me how to fix my life the way I want it to be fixed. I can tell that they are tired of me again, but I don't know what I do that makes them tired of me. We all have known each other since middle school and some since elementary school. I guess I will have to figure it out sooner or later before I break in front of them...

More tears on my pillow.

So i figured out that the guy I'm trying to get over but cant cause i still like a lot likes another girl..i danced it out and though that id be fine, well i wasn't i just cried until i fell asleep. i know my friends keep telling me to get over him but i cant. they say that " he is going to have to break my heart before i can move on." idk why i feel this way about him. i shouldn't like him soo much cause I'm in high school and I'm young and idk. i never have good luck with boys.  they want me for sex and other stuff.( i don't do that stuff ) but they never like me as a girlfriend. idk whats wrong with me. idk she is really pretty so i understand why he would like her and they're always together now and i just want to cry every time i see them. i know i probably sound like every other teenage girl that thinks there in love..but i know I'm not in love so idk why i feel this way..

Pointe Shoes

So today i got my pointe shoes:) Ive been dancing for 2 years and the first year i danced 2 hours a week now i dance over 20 hours a week. Ive been working alot so i can get my pointe shoes!:) and I'm sooo happy i got them today:):) so im going to start another blog about dance:) I'm sooo excited to write about dance and how much i love it..lol:) from getting my Trippe to my toes bleeding:) haha its been an eventful year getting here and i cant wait to share whats in store for me with you:)!!

tired

I feel like I'm screaming and he cant even hear me. you know the guy I'm trying to get over..yeah he sat next to me in class today. i tried not to look soo much and well i need to get over him right?..I've like him over a year..probably time to move on..but I'm just stuck. like i want to talk but i get the feeling that he doesn't really care so i just keep quiet to myself. ahh i just like him soo much and i don't know what to do..

Head Pain

Its 10:16 and I'm starting my homework. My sister moved out today. i cried when she left. I'm going to miss her! but i have 2 years till I'm moving out:) I'm sorta scared to move out. i feel like I'm going to be lost in the world. and what if no dance school accepts me..hum but i want to be married by the time i graduate. ha ha i know I'm crazy. but its always been a dream to get married young. but i don't think ill find a guy who has the same image of getting married as young as we are..lol

HAPPYYYY

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE:)!!!!!!!!! HOPE  ALL OF YOU HAVE A WONDERFULL YEAR!!!:):)