Screaming

So I really dislike high school. don't you love how when your friends always say that they're  going to be there for you when your in need of help because you always help them in there time of need. Well as most of you can tell they really could care less. Gosh I just want to cry and scream when ever I'm around them. I don't know why I feel this way it all started out with that stupid guy and how he likes someone else and it hurt I cried and  I'm finally getting over him but now its like everyone is out to hurt my feelings or something..(i know most of you must be saying suck it up, its just high school) but Ive never felt so lost and sensitive and like I want someone to be there so I can talk to and can understand me. Why is it that they come to me for all the answers and I cant even figure out my own life. I just need to get away from school, dance, friends, and family just for a weekend so I can figure it out because no one can tell me how to fix my life the way I want it to be fixed. I can tell that they are tired of me again, but I don't know what I do that makes them tired of me. We all have known each other since middle school and some since elementary school. I guess I will have to figure it out sooner or later before I break in front of them...